On the Horizon.

Hello my dear friends! 

I hope you all are well. I am writing to you all from a very content, joyful place! I can say confidently that I am the happiest I have been in a very long time! I have hopped back on my blog a newly graduated student, a freshly inspired songstress, and a little bit goofier then before (: (if you can believe it) 

However, the real reason I am here is to share with you all what is on the horizon! The rumors are true, I AM RECORDING NEW MUSIC. Next week to be exact! I have been in the studio working on pre-production and am headed to Studio 1979 to record with a live band (: Something I haven't done since I was the tender age of fourteen. Needless to say, it's been a long time coming. 

When I began singing and writing again, I witnessed healing in my heart and soul like never before. I watched my music become one of the major healing properties in my journey through trauma. I had always written, but looking back at it now, I'm not sure the songs I penned in the past were written from personal experience. I was writing with people who were much older then I was most of the time, so generally speaking we would end up writing songs based off of experiences I had yet to endure! Fast forward to my present day, my writing has become my public diary; a conglomeration of my fears, my pains, and past regrets, my thankfulness, and my joy. It seems as though all I can write these days are my stories. And it is the most freeing, beautiful thing I have been capable of doing yet. 

I have been personally writing with one individual in particular for the past six months (or really past several years) but it was only until this past season I decided to open up in our writing sessions and allow the floodgates of vulnerability to be on display. Jake Anderson has been a friend, a mentor, a therapist, a board I have bounced ideas off of, and a co-writer. He has helped me articulate some of the deepest pains. I can honestly say that I don't think I could've done it without him! It makes me so giddy that the song we wrote a couple months back is now coming to life!

When the Lord placed these songs on my heart, I knew He wanted me to share them. The only issue I had was who and when. Who would I work with? When would I have the means to actually record them? For so long those questions burdened me. I remember asking the Lord to work miraculous efforts in the hearts of those I would contact to help me develop these songs. I remember sitting with my dad the night before I had a meeting with a producer I have wanted to work with for years now. I cried to my dad expressing to him how badly I wanted the opportunity! We both got on our knees to pray, and the following day I was agreeing with Ryan Poole and Leah Lowrance to begin a project. I wish I could tell you all the graciousness and love I have received from them both. But alas, some things should be kept locked away in my heart for me solely to reflect on the goodness of others. 

I have been a teary-eyed woman lately because I feel more supported than ever. So many people are rallying for me. WHY!!!! I'm not sure. What I do know is the Holy Spirit lives in each of these songs. Lately, when people ask me what kind of music I do, I say an extension of worship. And friends, that is all I am willing to share now (: 

I love you guys so much. Thank you for still being here. Thank you for reading. Thank you for listening! I see you and I appreciate you. Blessings to each and every one of your precious hearts. 

Carmen xox

You are good enough.